Many of you, my dear JSHealth community, know a bit about my life.
You know I recently published a book. And I am now in the process of creating book two – which means lots of writing and a huge amount of recipe testing. (This also means a permanently messy kitchen, haha.)
I am planning a wedding in December – less than two months!
I have a multitude of work commitments. We all do, I know.
And I have to say I am incredibly blessed because up until now, life felt SO good. Actually, no – INCREDIBLE.
Life has never been better.
I have built up a dream career – seriously, it is a dream for me to do what I love to do.
I have a very loving and supportive family.
I am so in love with my partner, Dean. And my relationship with myself is better than ever.
A blessed life, to say the least.
And I know that life on Instagram looks easy and glamorous. But it’s important to remember that what you see on social media – from anyone – isn’t always the whole story.
Because recently I broke down. There is so much on my plate, and I simply felt broken.
The success of JSHealth happened quite fast; only 2 years of blogging.
And I am a perfectionist, so I feel like everything has to be done perfectly. This has been huge, huge pressure that my body can’t take much more of. I wasn’t fully aware of the pressure and demands that come with success, and I was ignoring the signals my body was sending me.
Last week, I woke up with severe fatigue. I could hardly lift my head off the pillow.
Tying my laces was difficult. It was terrifying.
You have to know something about me – I AM NEVER TIRED. I am rarely ever physically unwell. I always have loads of energy.
But now, I felt low. I felt sad. I didn’t feel excited about anything. That scared me.
I didn’t have the energy to think about wedding plans. I felt totally unmotivated, and I didn’t want to do anything but lie down.
Even after three or four days I still feel terrible. I am exhausted. It could be physical; my iron may be low, or perhaps my thyroid needs some support.
But it could very well be emotional stress and pressure causing my fatigue.
I don’t know just yet, but I want to feel like myself again. The waiting is so hard.
So this week is yet another lesson and reminder: we can never take for granted how good healthy feels. My health must be my priority.
And sometimes…
We have to lay low.
We have to say no to commitments.
We have to say no to the pressure and take care of our bodies.
Right now, I really need to take care of myself. And I hope you’ll give yourself permission to do the same. Thank you for all of your support and following my story. As you can see – I am still on my journey!
